As I start this thing called a taper for the first time ever, I have noticed something, my shorter runs are awful! I am not sure why. Is it the anxiety of knowing the race is soon? Is it the pressure I have put on myself to even run this far? I don’t know. All I know is that what use to be the worst part of my run, the first 3 miles, has now lasted until mile 5 where I get some strange burst of energy. The one good thing that has come out of it is that I am pushing beyond my limits and that is happening with almost every run. I hope this bodes well for the marathon. Each day I go out (and fortunately I have been able to go outside to do these runs) I tell myself the minimum amount I want to run and I push myself to make it that far and then I challenge myself to go a little farther. I hope/know this will help with the run. These mind games I keep playing with myself seem to be working. Today, I set out to do 3 miles and ended up doing 6.25 miles. Yeah for pushing a little harder!
I know I need to taper and if you ask me a taper would be running once or twice a week for as far as you think you should go. But I am trying to actually follow a plan for the taper so I don’t over train (I assume that is worse than training to much). I almost feel like I am running more days but getting less distance or maybe I am just getting anxious like I said earlier. Starting to question my sanity a little more! Dreading every run until the big one because I am scared?! I don’t know but like I have said in the past, I am my own worst client so this running that use to get me out of my head is now so in my head that I can’t get out of its way. HELP!!!! (Fairly certain tomorrow is a day off from running! It is supposed to be raining and cold anyway!)