Not much going on this week but sometimes those are the better weeks. Those are the weeks I begin to ask myself “why I do the things I do?” This is not meant in a derogatory way in fact, quite the opposite. I use it to motivate me and it does.
Today I began wondering why I was running. Not running in general but why I was running today. See I woke up this morning with one of those Charlie horse cramps in my calf and it has hurt all day. Then when I went out this evening there were all kinds of strikes against me. There was the calf pain, the fact the run was going to have to be short because it was getting dark, and then there was the fact that the week had been a really long (but good) week. So “why was I running and not just relaxing at home with the excitement that Friday was tomorrow?” As I sit here on my couch enjoying that feeling of accomplishment, that feeling of satisfaction for pushing myself another day the “why” question is answered. I run and push myself because of this feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction. This is why I run.
I always tell people “I run so I can eat dessert” (well that is true too) but I also run to feel accomplished and as a coping skill for a job that has me sitting all day and actively listening to help clients. The only things I have to listen to when I run (especially now that I run without headphones/music) are the sounds of my body (what it is telling me about how I’m doing) and the traffic since I am running on the road.
So that is my “why?” I often ask my clients “why they keep repeating the same actions over and over and what their expectations are for change?” I can answer that, the reason I run is because I want to stay in shape and improve to get new PR’s (like this past Sunday).
“Why do you keep repeating the same actions over and over especially when sometimes they are painful?”