I’m stuck. Or is it fear? Probably both. Maybe even lack of motivation! Why don’t we throw in all kinds of stuff to describe where I am right now. I haven’t really had a blog entry in a little while because of all of these emotions. So I am hoping that by writing about it I can let it go and it can be cured by this simple processing act (afterall, I ask my clients to do it!).
Here is the situation… I’m not is great space and I think it is a multitude of things.
- It’s the holidays and all though I enjoy them, they are stressful and expensive. Not to mention my job gets really hard during this time of year so I have to work extra hard to not let others issues get in my space (which believe me is VERY difficult).
- My runs are not going well (which doesn’t help #1). When I ran the Turkey trot and got my new PR I noticed my right hip/top part of my hamstring has been hurting and I can’t figure out how to make it feel better. My runs have been at the gym (except for one or two outside when I got done with work early) and I haven’t been able to run more than an hour and last night I could only run 3 miles. I am hoping this is only a bad run night and I am hoping by taking today off that I can get a better run in tomorrow (maybe even a 10 miler).
- I need to take my licensure exam for my profession and it scares the pants off me! Okay maybe my pants are staying on, but I don’t like to take tests. I like the idea that I am helpful and I think I’m pretty good at what I do (that’s very hard to say but I’m getting more confident) and I understand why they have to test but can’t I just get a waiver for good behavior! So I’ve printed out the form to sign up for the test (which by the way takes 4 weeks for them to process the paperwork to get you signed up for a test date of about 3-4 months away), I’ve filled it out but I’m not ready to write the expensive check and mail it. (maybe that brings us back to the holidays and how things begin to add up quick during them!) (Can someone show me how to make more money so I don’t have to worry about money anymore?! Please!!)
- I’m starting to think I am complaining to much so really number 4 is just me saying maybe it is time to just “suck it up and become unstuck!”
What’s the plan to get unstuck? Well if I was my client (we all know that I am my own worst client), I would ask myself to pick one of the 3 things I listed (remember #4 doesn’t count) and work on it! I guess I will do number 3 because really that is the one that I have some control over. #2 I just need to listen to my body and let it happen and not push too hard because I have a lot of time until that marathon in April. #1 is a little out of my control too. My clients are doing pretty well right now and I can only help them one day at a time and as far as the expense of the holidays I think I just need to suck it up. We always spend too much so this should not surprise me and be glad that it only happens once a year!
The good news is that at least by writing this I was able to process being stuck and I think tomorrow I will begin my unsticking. Tonight,however, I will enjoy my glass of wine, relax by the Christmas tree, and dream of warmer weather to run in!