Have you ever had one of those runs where it doesn’t seem like anything is really going right? Well that was today’s run. I was set to do my last long run before my next marathon in October and I was planning a 22 miler. Well you know when I start talking in past tense that it did not go well.
Our morning was thrown off a little when a meeting that was supposed to happen got canceled so instead of going right out and going for a run, I laid around for over an hour. That was probably mistake number one. Then once I did get started I tried a new training plan. It’s called a 5-4-3-2-1 run where you run easy for 1-2 miles at the beginning and then 5 miles at race pace, then 1 mile easy and so on and so on until you finish with a 1 mile easy run. I thought it would be good especially since it was cool outside. You know, try something new. 5.5 miles in, my stomach said “hey, you need to make a stop”. So off into the woods I went. This has never happened to me during a training run. But on I pushed (after the pit stop), I was determined to make today’s run good.
As I got done with mile 9, I was thinking let’s turn this run into a 20 miler. My body screamed “Yippee, that means we get to turn around soon”. I made it to mile 10 and that is when my whole self said “this sucks! I hear it is better to undertrain than overtrain.” I plodded along and talked to my other half who was biking next to me and made arrangements for him to go on ahead and bring the car a little closer than the 10 miles it was away.
Off he went to get the car and left me trudging along, now uphill, to our meeting point. That is when my brain went into overdrive:
Why are you doing this?
You are never going to qualify for Boston!
Maybe you should just stick with 10K’s, you did great last weekend.
Time to walk
Burr, I’m cold
Can’t wait to get to that towel at the car so I can warm up
Maybe I should do more crunches.
Crunches really, you think that would help what is going on right now?
What is going on right now?
I think I see the car
Yippee we get to stop moving!
(There was lots more negative thoughts but don’t want to overwhelm you with how bad my thoughts were today! What can I say, sometimes I am my own worst therapist.)
Now hours after making it home, a long shower, and refueling with dinner and an extra thick chocolate frappe, I continue to beat myself up about what went wrong. Really I have no idea. I just felt gross and Dave keeps telling me to chalk it up to a bad day because we all know that those happen. So I’m working on that. And I do remain hopeful that it was just one run and I can get out there tomorrow and complete the last few miles of the run and still have a weekend full of miles. So right now that is the plan, at least 3.25 miles tomorrow to finish my 20 mile run and if it feels good maybe an extra 2 to get the 22 miles done!
Here’s to changing thoughts and to quit beating myself up!
Ever have a bad run? What did you do to move on?