Well, I finished! It wasn’t my best time and it wasn’t my worst time but it was an accomplishment. With this race I was able to finish The Cape Trilogy for the first time. It was fun to be a part of these three races and I am glad I did it. I think next year I will move on to some other races since there are a lot of races that occur at the same times as the trilogy races that sound like fun too.
But now back to the race. The course is a beautiful, hilly course along the cranberry bogs and the ocean on Cape Cod. I ran the course last year and I kept telling myself that there is a hill at mile 9 so be ready for it. But I apparently forgot about all the hills in between and also got the number wrong. It’s not mile 9, it’s mile 11. Oh well. I was hurting way before mile 9 or 11. By this point, so much doubt had crept in about my marathon in 2 weeks, that I wanted to make the call from my phone at the finish line and see if I can defer until next year. Why you ask? Well I had some pain in my knee starting at mile 5 and it lasted until mile 8. So the good news is that it stopped hurting or I just got use to the pain, I’m not sure.
So the finish was a relief. It was also a relief that I finished in less than two hours. That was my goal. The official time was 1:54:56 and I was 22/97 in my age group (wow those women over 40 are fast!). Anyway, I spent today in doubt too. I’m headed to my running store tomorrow after work to have a chat. I think I need new shoes and I’m scared to do too much before the 19th because I want to run the marathon. I think I will ease off some of my taper miles, concentrate on strength building and stretching. I am just a lot overwhelmed and trying to stay out of my head, which means I have to replace running with doing something so I feel like I don’t lose my fitness before the marathon.
The good news is, if you want to run a fun trilogy that is small, easy parking, and fast, The Cape Cod Trilogy is the place. (I can’t wait to get my “free” jacket in February for completing the trilogy. Dave says it’s not free because of all the money we spent staying on the cape and the amount of training I put in. I disagree. I would have spent that money on races anyway so this is an extra piece of running clothing I get for “free”.)
The bad news is, I struggle to get out of my head and I’m overwhelmed with a possible injury after working so hard to get to the start line of my next marathon, but I’m working on staying calm, getting out of my head and figuring out how I can still make it to the starting line. I haven’t given up just yet!
Have you had these self doubt moments? How did you get out of them?
Here are some pics to end this blog with happy moments…..