I seem to disappear a lot from the blog world… sorry. I try to come here and write inspirational stuff or stuff that I think people would like to read, which in reality is completely different than why I started this blog. So I was thinking just writing would be good for me, so here I am.
My life is having some recent ups and downs… after the marathon I was down, then I got into the Chicago Marathon and found myself up. Yeah for a new goal to drive you to keep going. I also had a great run in a last minute half marathon I signed up for. It was on my birthday and was really fitting that I was turning 43 and had the number 430 as well as the race being on the 9th of May and it was my 9th half marathon. I would say the stars all aligned.
I now find myself a little down once again. I think this is because my training has no goal at this point. It’s not time to start the training for the marathon but who wants to lose all that fitness from my last full marathon. So I try to run at least 3 times a week and figure I should just stay in my old training plan adding the bike in and core work. But still I struggle with a funk. I understand the post marathon blues but I’m hoping this is still not it. As a therapist I would tell myself to try to stay out of my head and do things I love. Here is the problem… I am doing the things I love and they cause me to be in my head.
At home we have some job changes happening and I am finding that I am not good with change. Okay there I said it. I like normalcy, I like a plan, I CRAVE structure. You throw in uncertainty and change and I seem to lose my mind. We are also remodeling and living at home while doing it. We have a good contractor but one who seems to have us wedged in to time that he has available. So that means one room gets done and then we wait for a week or two for the next room to get done. Now you have a runner without a plan, having a house remodeled inside, and job changes and you have a crazy woman with no focus who can’t get away from the craziness who by the end of the week wants to run away. Don’t worry, if I run away I will always return because this orderly person likes to shower and likes her bed! 🙂
There it is the craziness of some of the ups and downs going on in my life. I want to sit back and enjoy them and find that having one or two at a time is okay but all at the same time is overwhelming. So now you know… a therapist is a normal person (oh wait, not sure I ever mentioned that before). :-0 We struggle too and sometimes the reason we do therapy is because it is therapy for us too.
PS – I will be going for some long runs this weekend and trying to keep my mind in the moment and enjoy the day, at least these are the coping skills I’m going to put to work and hopefully they will work. 🙂