We all know life isn’t fair, okay if you didn’t know, life is not fair. Well life also has times in it that don’t get easier. I had this epiphany while making dinner. I know this is going to sound strange but bear with me….
You know when you are making chicken nuggets and you dip them in flour, then in egg and then in the breadcrumbs and your fingers get all covered and it actually gets a little more difficult to make instead of easier because you get in a rhythm. So you have to stop clean up your hands and start again, sometimes you have to do this multiple times but in the end it is worth it.
I know, I know when did I turn this blog into a blog about cooking? Really that seems to be the only time today I was able to process everything that happened so here goes with that explanation:
Let’s start with the running…. Today was torrential down pours when I left work so it meant off to the gym I went. On the training plan today was 9 miles with 10/100m strides and it was to be done on the dreadmill. Really it wasn’t that bad but it was not easy. In fact, I was hopeful that it would be a little easier than the 15 miles I completed on the treadmill on Sunday (hey the windchill was in the double digit negative degrees, I didn’t want to freeze to death!). My hopes of easier where dashed when I had to jump off for a pit stop at mile 3.25, then dropped my GU fuel at mile 5 but finally completed the 9 miles with a 9min pace. Not too bad but really not any easier than the 15 miler the 2 days before.
The real moment of not getting any easier came from work today when I found out a client who I use to work with before I changed jobs to Program Director, passed away from an overdose over the weekend. I know the reality of the work I do. In my state alone 4 people die from overdose every day and I always say that I can’t save people but I can help them if they are ready to work their butts off to do the work to save themselves. It just does not get an easier. That is probably why I stay so passionate about my work. I am always trying to make client’s experiences better, to reach more people, and to do the best I can. At the end of the day, it does not get any easier to move past a death of a client. But Dave reminds me to focus on those that are continuing to flourish, to make the changes they need to make and to face life on life’s terms.
So really I don’t want it to get easier, I will continue to work my butt off to run farther, train harder, and set new running goals. I will also be thankful for these moments that keep me working harder for my clients and the reminder that all I can do is my best.
By the way, the nuggets were worth it. I like them better than the store bought ones that would have been a lot easier!