Hi! I didn’t forget about you even if you were thinking I did. I just have been doing a lot and not had a lot to say but today I finally was motivated to blog because something was really getting under my skin and wondered if anyone else had the same issue or experience.
Let’s start with, let’s be nicer to each other. I say this not directing it at anyone in particular but most of us have battles going on that no one else knows about or can see especially when it looks like we have it all together. Sometimes that is just an illusion.
Now to what got under my skin….
I am skinny, I know it, but still have my own issues with areas of my body that I don’t like, especially with my abs. I work hard on my core and for all the work I do, I want to see it better. (But that is a talk for another day) My main beef is that I get lots of people, women especially, say things like “I could never be skinny like you” or “of course you can eat anything, you are skinny.”
Well guess what peeps, I’m skinny because I dedicate a large part of my life trying to grow old gracefully. For me this includes spending 5, 6, or even 7 days a week at the gym or running outside. And these days are not just 20 mins on the treadmill, we are talking hours devoted at each session doing these things.
Now don’t get me wrong, I enjoy it and I do see results which keeps me motivated to keeping doing it but I feel each time someone makes one of these comments to me it just puts me on the defensive trying to justify why I look the way I do and really makes me feel self-conscious. I work hard to look this way because I want to. I am motivated and driven to do these things because of how they make me feel and the results. I love to set goals and achieve them, surpass them or even fail at them because that is when I learn the best. I run races because I like the bling but they are also very motivating. I have a wall in my house that is not out in the public spaces that is dedicated to “living Large” (a play on my last name “Large). It’s a place where I hang all my medals and bibs and I can see it every day to motivate me to go that extra mile or extra miles!
In 2016 I ran 2075 miles which is more than twice as many miles as I did in 2015 and this year I have set a goal to run 2017 miles in 2017 (that number is even scary after I ran all the miles I ran this year). Also this past year, I was able to complete two marathons (Vermont City and NYC Marathon) and half marathons number 13, 14, 15, and 16. I set a new half PR and a new 10K PR. These are huge accomplishments but I got them not from being skinny. I got them from being motivated and dedicated.
So if you want to say “of course you did that because you are dedicated or motivated and I could never do that” then say it but don’t say it’s because I’m skinny. I can help you with motivation!
My body is a result of how I live my life not because of some blessing of waking up daily and being skinny. Believe me if that was the answer and all it took, I would take it (but I would probably still run because I like the bling!) 🙂