Tell us about the role that faith plays in your life — or doesn’t. – Daily Prompt
Merriam Webster defines Faith as:
1.a : allegiance to duty or a person : loyalty
b (1) : fidelity to one’s promises (2) : sincerity of intentions
2a (1) : belief and trust in and loyalty to God (2) : belief in the traditional doctrines of a religion
b (1) : firm belief in something for which there is no proof (2): complete trust
3: something that is believed especially with strong conviction;especially : a system of religious beliefs <the Protestantfaith>
Faith to me is first a belief in a power greater than myself. I define mine as God and have faith that there is some rhyme or reason to why things happen the way they do! There have been many reasons I have this faith and they all date back to growing up in a Christian home with strong values. My faith in God is and has always been strong especially through the challenges I have faced in 40 years of life.
More recently faith in myself has been what I have been working on. Not to say I do not have self-worth or self-esteem, I’m just saying that as I try new things (like whether to train for a marathon or starting a new job after grad school) I tend to lack faith in my abilities. I am starting to really understand that it is these challenges that make me grow and give me more confidence but it’s hard! I know because each day I meet with people face to face who describe these challenges/trials/insurmountable obstacles and ask me for help. I waiver in my faith in myself that I can do it and sometimes I can’t but I have found that I am just a director, a person to help steer them to grow and face their problems on their own helping them to have faith in themselves. It’s crazy how that word keeps popping up in my day to day life. So how can I not have faith?
Right now I am challenged because I want to do something more with my running. I am pretty sure I want to run a marathon (the longest distance ever in my life!) but my faith keeps wavering. Nice questions pop up in my head like, “Really, do you think you can really run that far?”, “Are you crazy?” (that one’s my favorite because I know the answer is yes), “Once you get out there 13.1 miles you have to get back do you think you can do that?”. So this is where my faith in myself and my ability to train and prepare need to get me through. I feel like the little engine that could, “I think I can, I think I can.”
And isn’t that what Faith is really about anyway?! Thinking we can, trying it, and whether we succeed or fail at least we tried and that in and of itself builds our faith. Every day I am unsure whether I can give the right advice or really hear what a Client is trying to say, yet I try it anyway. I do no harm and have faith in my ability to empathize. Every day I am challenged to continue my faith in a power greater than myself, God, and I continue to believe that He will give me the words to say and the abilities needed to make it through. Every day I am challenged to get a run in to keep training for the next race or just to stay in shape and when I am finished with that run/workout I have stronger faith in my abilities. This is how faith plays a role in my life. How about yours?