Feeling off and Let down

So for the past few weeks including this week I have only worked 4 days.  I’m not bragging.  On the contrary, I find that it makes me feel a little off.  When I look at the calendar, in fact, I have not worked a full week since early December.  Some of those days I took off due to the holidays but some of those days have been due to the abundant amount of snow we have had in New England.  In fact if you are looking for your snow, I think we have it.  Since the beginning of February we have only had 5 days without snow and I think they were saying that we have over 7 feet of snow since late January.  I love snow but I think I’m done, really I think I am feeling a little off.

I like to have a schedule and I find I work better if I know what is going to happen in my week so these snow days, while I appreciate the time off with my family, I need to get back some normalcy or I think I’m gonna have to talk to my boss about working only 4 day work weeks (not really sure this will fly!).

So that is my feeling off, now on to my feeling let down…

Due to all this snow, I just found out that my half marathon scheduled for this weekend has been canceled and I also won’t be able to get my new jacket that I earned by completing the trilogy of half’s last year (which you could only get by coming to the race and picking it up also, as of right now they are not sure when they will be giving those out).  I get it, I understand that it will not be safe and shockingly they are predicting more snow for this weekend.  I was hopeful that I would finally get to go outside and run because I have been stuck on the treadmill since January.  With all this snow, I might be able to go outside safely in about April.  Now I don’t want this to come across as an all whiny post, in fact, while writing this I was hoping to inject some motivational, inspirational stuff, so here goes…

My training for my marathon is going great.  I have done all my runs on the treadmill and this includes my long weekend runs of 18 or 20 miles on any given weekend.  I’m feeling really strong and hopeful that this marathon in April will go well.

A little shoveling can be used as cross training right… well if so my cross training is going fabulous.  Plus when I am trapped inside, I have found some things I can do to spice up my ab routines and strength training even with my light weights of 5lbs and 10lbs.

Sorry I have been away so long, you would think with the days off I would keep my blog updated but sometimes when you “feel off” it’s pretty hard to think of things to talk about.  So like any good therapist would say, “It’s time to push through this and get back some normalcy” and this is what I intend to do.

Have you ever felt off?  What has gotten you back on?

Ever had a race canceled?  What did you do?

A little snow from about two storms ago.  Just add about another foot to this picture.

A little snow from about two storms ago. Just add about another foot to this picture.

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The escape trail from the back of our place.

Most recent treadmill run with the snow on the way home.

Most recent treadmill run with the snow on the way home.

 

Almost done! 30/31

Almost done with Janathon and I’m doing my Janathon dance, how about you?  (This can count as exercise too, right?!)

Today is short and sweet:

Worked, went to the gym and now going to dinner with friends.

I love Fridays!!!

I hope you have a great weekend!

Janathon Update: 11.36 mile level 9 bike ride, random hills in 30 mins, core work with the ball and then stretching.

Life Balance

life-balanceAccording to a blog friend’s website (check her out here: Piper’s Run) today is mental health day in Canada.  As a therapist I think that is a great idea and wondering if the US has an actual day like this too.  I’m not sure because really every day is a mental health day for me especially during the work week.

On the blog,  Anna talked about the following questions and gave her personal reflections on them and asked others to do the same.  So here goes:

Question #1: Give your personal definition of life balance.

Having my priorities in the right place and getting the most out of each day.  My life balance includes eating good, exercising daily, spending quality time with my family and friends as well as spending some quality time with myself on a daily basis and if it all doesn’t happen, letting it go and trying again tomorrow.

Question #2: Do you sometimes struggle w/ life balance as a runner? (running taking over, annoying others/not running as much as you want).

Sometimes I find running takes over on the weekends especially when I have to get the long runs in.  My family has been accepting because they know that I am a better person if I take the time for myself.  Plus I feel like it helps my daughter understand that as a women we can get drawn in to doing so many things for others we put ourselves on the back burner and we really need to create better boundaries and make ourselves a priority.

Question #3:  Have you ever made a physical list of what your priorities actually are? Whether yes or no, what are the top 3?

I feel like a makes lists daily for what is the priority of the day.  I may not write them all down but they are always swirling in my head.  But my top three priorities will always be family, spiritual/mental health and physical health (although those two are intertwined so easily).  Everything else makes itself a priority after that, like what do I need to get done today?!

Question #4: Have you ever taken a few days & tracked your time & see how you actually use it? Work, sleep, TV, phone, family, running, etc 

Not really.  I think I have a pretty good idea because I do have a training log for my running and I can tell that I spend a lot of time in the exercise world and know that I usually spend 8 hours at work per day during the week as well as try to get at least 8 hours of sleep each night (cause I love my sleep).  So If I add that all up I would say that is about 18 or 19 hour accounted for some I’m assuming the rest is at home with family or running some errands. lifebalance

Question #5: If you feel like things are unbalanced, how do you hit reset? For some, it’s easy – for others, quite hard. Share your tips! 

I go for a run!  As a therapist I have days where hitting the reset button can be difficult.  If I’m in groups with clients, sometimes I will talk about having struggles with resetting (without getting to personal) and hear how they reset.  I find that helpful and they do to.  Also laughter is a great reset.  I try to find something funny whether it is a cartoon, funny show or just rethinking my thoughts and finding humor in my ways of thinking.  It is very helpful.

Question #6: Is improving our life balance as runners all about increasing positive things, decreasing negative things or both?

Yes, is that a good answer?!  I think life balance is realizing that positive things will happen and we need to enjoy them.  Negative things will happen and we need to learn from them.  But trying to decrease things means to me that we have total control over everything that comes into our life on a daily basis, which is so not true.  We do however have control over how we perceive it and what we take from it.  If we work on keeping ourselves in a positive state of mind, even when negative things come in, we will see them in a better more productive/positive light.

So I took the challenge about life balance, now it is your turn.  Give it a try.  Answer the questions and let me know about your life balance. 

Taking care of ourselves…

Never enough marshmallows!

Never enough marshmallows!

Today I took the day off, well it was a planned day off in fact I took a long weekend starting with Friday.  I knew we were going up to Vermont to visit our oldest and I also knew that we would have a packed weekend so it seemed like a good idea to have a rest day on Monday.  Which in reality means a day to get stuff done after being gone all weekend.  I’m okay with that though.

I started the day by telling my family goodbye as they all set out on their various day.  Both of which took them away from home for either the next two days or the whole week.  I was okay with that too because it allowed me to spend some time with myself and focus on what I need.  This may sound a little selfish but I believe we need to take time for ourselves.  I know that I am a better person when I get things done for me and spend some time with myself.

Today I filled this time with the gym, grocery shopping for good lunch items, and had a wonderful massage.  I also took some time to really be mindful of what I was doing it while I was doing it.  The best was the massage and really breathing and relaxing.  I do have an advantage with my massage therapist because I have gone enough times that I know her routine and it always feels better knowing what is coming next and really allows me to relax and almost fall asleep.  Now here I sit enjoying my hot chocolate and watching the National Championship football game.  Just enjoying and doing things I want to do.  I was hoping to read a little which might happen but I would say all in all today was a good day.  I’m hoping that by taking this time off for myself I will be a better listener, co-worker and therapist when I return to work tomorrow for a short 4 day work week.

I think everyone should take some time for themselves.  You should look at it as taking care of yourself.  I know with the stress of the day it is often hard to take a moment and relax but even if it is just having a cup of coffee or hot chocolate, or hiding away in the bathroom for 5 mins to breath and regroup, it is necessary.  You should challenge yourself to take moment daily to regroup.  Take a moment to be mindful of what you are doing and why you are doing it and enjoy it.

Do you take time for yourself?  If not, why not?  If so, what do you do?

Overwhelmed…

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My fortune at my work Christmas party. I thought it was great and fitting!

I don’t know about you but this time of the year I find myself beyond overwhelmed.  It is really all I can do to finish work, fix dinner for the fam, and get some rest to start it all over the next day.  I get so excited when it is the weekend but before I know it, BAM, it’s time to start it all over again.  Today I was so happy that I got out of work at 12pm.  I was able to come home and fix myself a hot lunch, which is unusual because I usually eat a sandwich real quick between clients.  I find that this doesn’t help the overwhelmed feeling.

Today, I was able to put a word to what I was feeling.  I thought it was stress but really I didn’t have a lot to be stressed about because Dave was doing most of the Christmas shopping and thanks to the internet I have been able to do a little in the evening.  But today I just decided it was the emotions that happen this time of year when you don’t live close to your family, you want to do so many things, and you want to keep your level of work performance really high especially when your clients are really struggling.  So instead of stressed out, I call it being overwhelmed.  I find that my overwhelmed person tends to pull back from all social media, spends alone time on the verge of tears (yes, even a therapist has emotional times), and just not exercising like I should (which probably would help the verge of tears self!).

So now that I realize it and the Christmas season is just at its most stressful/overwhelming period I have to make a plan.  Dave mentioned to me that I haven’t been blogging very much so maybe I should use my blog for what I intended (a place to talk) and focus back on what is important.  If I don’t get that perfect gift for someone, it’s not going to be a big deal.  If I go for that long run and miss an event it is not going to be that big of a deal, because I do better when I allow myself some time to meditate while I run.  I need to take the pressure off myself.  Time to get back to some basics.

Me and Judy before the Jingle Bell 5K - My fun little Ms. Claus outfit.

Me and Judy before the Jingle Bell 5K – My fun little Ms. Claus outfit.

I did find myself more relaxed last Sunday after the Jingle Bell 5K with my marathon friend.  It was great to run with a friend and 5500 of my closest running friends.  I felt sheer joy to be doing something I love.

Are you feeling like me?  Maybe it is time for you to take a break too.  What is your plan?