Ever have one of those weeks that is well planned out with a few things that might interfere only to have the things that might interfere actually take over and take control? That pretty much describes my training this past week.
Today I actually had to talk myself down from some anxiety due to the fact that for the second time this week I would not be able to put in all the miles that my plan called for. One of the thoughts that really helped was just telling myself that I am not sponsored by a company so I have to work and when work goes a little longer than planned I still have to pay the bills. Also, I have been struggling with some shoe/foot issues so those needed to be addressed this week as well and a little extra rest will be helpful or at least that is what I am saying to myself.
In saying all that, I have still been able to run every day except my rest day and will still finish the week on Sunday with mileage in the 40’s. Not as great as last week’s 68 miles but sometimes plans have to change when life interrupts….
Ever have moments/weeks like this? What did you do to get back on track?
This is the big question rolling around in my brain right now. And the reason is because I had an incredible friend who ran the New York Marathon yesterday and did something amazing. She improved her marathon time by almost an hour and is still flying on Cloud 9. I am soooo proud of her and glad it happened. She totally deserves it.
Then that normal human trait hits and I start to wonder, “will I ever be able to do that?” I train hard but really she trained harder. I want it just as bad but then I remember how much she ran, how much she gave up each day and how she pushed herself almost at points of never wanting to run again and do I want it that bad?
I love to run, I love to feel free, go distances I never thought I would and achieve things I never thought I would. I feel very comfortable at distances from a 5K – half marathon and know that those are all very achievable and for the most part I usually do very well at them. My last half marathon I was third in my age group (I’m very satisfied with that).
But that marathon….it’s elusive.
I train really hard and do what I think I need to do and then the test hits and I do my best and hope and pray I will hit my goal, yet it still hides. Now don’t get me wrong, I am very happy completing 5 marathons and each one I learned a ton. This last one I did improve my time by 23 minutes over my April marathon but the desire inside me to go faster is really eating away at me and I’m not sure how to fix it.
Really what this tells me is that I’m not done. We all knew that. We knew that I was not done with the marathon even though at mile 23 in the marathon I have a very strong urge to never get there again. I really do think I don’t want that feeling either. I want to be successful. I want to reach my goal afterall isn’t that why we set them. To achieve them, to be inspired by them and hopefully obtain them.
I haven’t solved the question but I think I realize it’s gonna take some more sacrifices to get there.
This week I had one of those moments. One of those moments when you feel like you might actually be understanding what the world/universe or in my case my higher power (I call mine God) is trying to teach you. This is how it happened….
Daily I post a motivational type quote on my facebook page. I have been doing this now for about 2 years or more and usually it is because the quotes are something I need to be reminded of or need to think about for the day. On Wednesday I posted this quote:
This was to remind me as I embarked on my 12 hour + day of meetings to just take it slowly and you will make it through or at least I thought that was why I posted it.
Then while in my first of four long meetings a colleague gave a presentation and at the end of the presentation she had this same quote. That was when I felt like it was much more than a perseverance quote I posted on facebook because what are the odds. I had never even heard this quote before I posted it on Wednesday morning.
I really began to think how does this quote apply to more in my life? Over the past couple of days I have been thinking about it and trying to figure that out.
In my job which can be very overwhelming right now because I am basically learning how to run a million dollar business while running a million dollar business, I need to learn to take things slowly. Set up the right procedures and policies and not just try to put a temporary fix on the problems because that will not work. Also I need to not be so hard on myself. In reality, I have only been the Director for 2 months and the facility has only been open for a little over 3 months.
In my running, especially my marathon training, there is so much to learn. Yes I have completed 5 marathons, 10 half marathons and numerous other races, but I am nowhere close to where I want to be as far as how fast I want to be. I hope to get there but I know that it might happen in time or it might not. I need to enjoy the pace. It might be happening slowly but as long as I don’t stop at least I am making progress.
Ever have one of these (as Oprah calls it) Aha Moments?
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