According to Wikipedia, doesn’t every great blogger refer to Wikipedia when they need information, a perfect storm is “a confluence of events that drastically aggravates a situation.” Or as a person who was raised in Oklahoma and have been around when the weathermen begin to go crazy weeks before storms come into the state, I begin to think of those moments when all the right things are happening to create a big weather event a perfect storm.
Now I am not saying that this week was a “perfect storm” in the form of a weather event but more of a “perfect storm” for many moments of melt down in my life. Okay maybe that is a little much but it was a tough week and this was the only way I could think of it. (If you can’t handle any whining now might be the time to step away and come back tomorrow for motivational Monday! 😉 Don’t say I didn’t warn you.)
As many of you know I am training for my 6th marathon and have tried a new training plan. This one had me doing up to 70 miles in one week. I have worked harder than ever before to get better at this crazy marathon thing. I have felt pretty good the whole time and have completed more miles in a short amount of time than ever before. For the month of April alone I ran 286.17 miles. That is more miles than I even drive in a month.
Anyway, things have been going well and I have felt very confident that this was going to be my best marathon ever! Then on Monday morning of this week (the day after my last 20 miler) I woke up with so much calf pain in my left leg, I struggled to walk and my mind took over. I started to doubt I could complete my marathon in 3 short weeks, I started to count my dreams out of ever getting a Boston Qualifying time. (Can you say, Drama queen much, I know!)
This was one ingredient to my “perfect storm”. In fact here are all the “confluence of events” that made this week my perfect storm. One: calf pain, Two: taper time – basically time to reduce the amount of running to prepare for my marathon. During this time I am usually very anxious because I start to visual the race and how I am going to handle it all and my expectations begin to really come into play. Third: hormones! For those that don’t have it, that time of the month is no cakewalk and for me I tend to be even more emotional during it. Four: added work stressors, really no need to explain that one, we all have them. Five: Turning a year older. Not really that stressful but I thought I would throw it in because it was an added event that happened this week. All the ingredients were present for the “perfect storm” in my mind this week.
I am happy to report that I survived it! I didn’t get the t-shirt but I made it through. Thank goodness I work really hard to stay motivated and in the present moment. Here are some tips for how I survived:
So I guess what I am saying is that when faced with the perfect storm, if you are prepared you can make it through. Your family me get tired of you for the week because there might be some whining, but if take a breath, take control of your mind, you can make it through.
Anyone else ever struggle with this? How did you make it through your taper time?
We all know life isn’t fair, okay if you didn’t know, life is not fair. Well life also has times in it that don’t get easier. I had this epiphany while making dinner. I know this is going to sound strange but bear with me….
You know when you are making chicken nuggets and you dip them in flour, then in egg and then in the breadcrumbs and your fingers get all covered and it actually gets a little more difficult to make instead of easier because you get in a rhythm. So you have to stop clean up your hands and start again, sometimes you have to do this multiple times but in the end it is worth it.
I know, I know when did I turn this blog into a blog about cooking? Really that seems to be the only time today I was able to process everything that happened so here goes with that explanation:
Let’s start with the running…. Today was torrential down pours when I left work so it meant off to the gym I went. On the training plan today was 9 miles with 10/100m strides and it was to be done on the dreadmill. Really it wasn’t that bad but it was not easy. In fact, I was hopeful that it would be a little easier than the 15 miles I completed on the treadmill on Sunday (hey the windchill was in the double digit negative degrees, I didn’t want to freeze to death!). My hopes of easier where dashed when I had to jump off for a pit stop at mile 3.25, then dropped my GU fuel at mile 5 but finally completed the 9 miles with a 9min pace. Not too bad but really not any easier than the 15 miler the 2 days before.
The real moment of not getting any easier came from work today when I found out a client who I use to work with before I changed jobs to Program Director, passed away from an overdose over the weekend. I know the reality of the work I do. In my state alone 4 people die from overdose every day and I always say that I can’t save people but I can help them if they are ready to work their butts off to do the work to save themselves. It just does not get an easier. That is probably why I stay so passionate about my work. I am always trying to make client’s experiences better, to reach more people, and to do the best I can. At the end of the day, it does not get any easier to move past a death of a client. But Dave reminds me to focus on those that are continuing to flourish, to make the changes they need to make and to face life on life’s terms.
So really I don’t want it to get easier, I will continue to work my butt off to run farther, train harder, and set new running goals. I will also be thankful for these moments that keep me working harder for my clients and the reminder that all I can do is my best.
By the way, the nuggets were worth it. I like them better than the store bought ones that would have been a lot easier!
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