As always I had a longer title to better describe this post, it was something like this, “Learning to pace yourself, making choices and being happy with them”. Sounds like a great title for a self-help book or a speech, don’t you think!
Today I had a lot of time to think and it really was interesting. I went out for a run and what was gonna be 10 miles turned into 14 miles. The weather was beautiful so I couldn’t resist staying out a little longer (my legs weren’t as happy with me but they will get over it, I’m sitting now to write this post so they can relax!)
When I turned around at mile 7 (because it was an out and back trail run so I had to get back to the car) I was on track for a pretty good pace about 8:35 – 8:40 per mile but finished with a 9:00 per mile pace. Then it happened, it wasn’t a wall it was just a slow down. I began to wonder if I had gone out to fast because that is what I usually do. I am never really good at pacing myself. I just kept telling myself today that it is all about the distance and not about the pace but did I really believe what I was telling myself. I did begin to think, what is it going to take to learn how to pace myself and not just in the running world. I tend to go all in on everything I do and sometimes sign up for things or commit to things without really figuring out how it will fit in my life. Then my pace becomes all off. I feel like I’m running around like a chicken with my head cut off (nice visual right).
So I have to learn to pace myself. I have to make some choices and I have to live with those choices which is sometimes harder because I begin to think we are in a world that expects us to keep going, be involved in everything because that is where you find value. But guess what, it is not true. I find more value in doing less things but being better at them. (At least that is what I am telling myself) How much better is it to do something really well then do a lot of things okay. I would never be happy with that!
The good news is I have already made a choice in my daily life to let something go that I could not do to the best of my ability. Oddly it felt pretty good. Now I’m taking a step back to figure out where I am, what I’m doing and what I want from this time in my life as well as what will make my life richer. (Haven’t figured everything out but I’m working on it.)
As far as the running is concerned, I think it comes with time. I’ve been thinking about buying the garmin watch so I can see how my pace goes up and down and what I really need to work on. But until that happens, I’ll do some research about working on my pace and keep running (or in finding Nemo terms, “just keep swimming!”)